WW Starting to talk again. Not sure if I want her.

[Surfer]

RSG, Painter, Cherry,

Thank you for the very supportive words.

Didn't end up shedding a tear but the firsts are certainly hard. That being said my sadness has moved almost fully now - felt like borderline depression. Decided I need to gym more. It always helps when I go and have not been there for ages. I remember forcing myself to run in the midst of those horrible co-habiting days it helped. I was sooooooo screwed up though. Nights of spew, rage followed by no sleep then fear in the morning as I acted as if I was cheerful when inside I felt depressed and mentally unhinged. Glad that period is over.

Took S6 swimming then we went for dinner with his pals from swimming. All good fun. Their Nan came too so it was nice just to have an adult chat. And just single glass of wine. Need to pack the binge drinking in - ir never works. Now on tea!

D8 is fine although her infection has spread and W suggested taking her to hospital. I said I'd be happy to bring S6 home or take her to H. She asked about what I though and had more co-parenting chats about tomorrow, the weekend etc. W is taking kids on my day to do something she booked a long time ago. I decided that was okay - it's about them ultimately.

W talked a lot to me today, both had lots of eye contact and I validated subtly, but kindly. She seems to be responding kindly back and even asked if I had eaten and I said no she offered me some pizza. I declined, not really eaten since anniversary. It won't last - my appetite is returning.

I will look after D8 again tomorrow after dropping S6 to school. Looking forward to it. Will have to fit in some work thought as today I have been a little tardy on that front.

Thanks for the points on co-parenting and yes it is a cr@p phrase. I don't thin W has an OM now. So if she starts works not back to show respect the opportunity to piece remains. I won't hold my breath......but it's possible. There was certainly respect today - lots of and no disrespect.

Watch this space, but not expecting anything although I am aware of my mind reading and future forecasting. Need to keep that in check.

A few more minutes of cuddle and Lego Star Wars then bed for S6.

Surfer.