Hey Blu, sounds like Piecing is even more exhausting! You sound a little down in your post especially when you say you dont know what will happen to your marriage in the long run. I guess no one knows this but it does frighten me if H did want to R that I may not be able to forget the pain he has caused me.
However I'm starting to slowly get what you mean about holding on to H and too much hope. I am so scared to let go in case I stop loving him and this is still a worry for me. But I am much better now after all the 2x4's I got a little while ago but I am now at the stage where I think if he came back now I really wouldn't know how to react!
Please don't feel like you can't post on your own thread because your are piecing. You give us all so much hope and something to hold on to. We welcome all you advice and 2x4's its exactly what we (I) need!
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')