Trying to detach - part deux

[Altair]

Hi Coly,
Oof. Had the lunch. Got all the way through and he brings up R. I validate, validate, validate. Validation seemed to trigger spew. I got dumped on, all these things I did wrong in M, etc. I started to cry. I got so emotionally overwhelmed I didn't know what to do, things went off the rails. I feel like an evil ogre, and the entire M breakdown is my fault. But then there were a few "if we are going to work this out you have to do X or communicate Y and you are still not doing that you haven't changed.."
So, there was so much anger and frustration leveled at me. Maybe this was a good thing, I have no idea. He hugged me goodbye, there's that.
I thought of you Coly, because until the lunch I was in your state, now, I have no idea what to think or do.
DB coach said go, have a nice lunch, be prepared for anything, we went over a few possibilities. We should have talked about what if he makes me cry!!