Trying to detach - part deux

[Coly23]

Hello everyone, how are you all doing? Sorry I have not been posting much on my own thread just here and there other threads. To be honest after my melt down when you were all so kind and gave me so much encouragement I kind of lost all my oomph!

During this time I've been reading and re-reading your posts to me and trying to digest everything that you all said and I think I'm starting to get there. I feel in a really strange place at the moment. I miss H, I miss our marriage but I don't feel compelled to see or speak with him and I really don't care what he is doing or who he is seeing anymore. I still have a little cry everyday especially when small things trigger me but it's not the gut wrenching, sobbing, fat tears anymore.

I've also been reading posts on Hopefullness and Piecing Our Marriage Back Together as it gives me some hope.....

My question is that, will this indifference to H that I am starting to feel mean I will stop loving him? I think that is what I was scared of, letting go in case I stopped loving him?

Not been doing much GAL at the moment either due to work but this weekend me and D are going to see some friends in a city two hours away. I cant wait to see them.