Job, that made me tear up, because that is exactly what I need most days. Just a big hug. And I love strong coffee. I do drop the balls sometimes.... I do my best not to beat myself up so hard over dropping them anymore and just move on and do better. Some days I just cry and ask God how I am going to keep doing it. other days I high five myself for getting it done.
I texted my ex D9's very first picture on the day of her both with the 3 of us with me still on the OR table and then the one I took this morning. I said "9 years, crazy, right?" he actual texted something personal and nice. he said " the delivery is still fresh in my mind. We are so lucky, our girl is the prettiest" I have always been pretty convinced he's forgotten any part of our life together. We never really talk about it, once in a blue moon he will bring up a small memory, like a dish he liked that I cooked or something. But I am just pretty sure once OW came into his life, he flushed out any life we had together. I'm just glad he remembers that day. I certainly can't forget it, lol.
Wii, that's what everyone says about my exH. he loved me the only way he knows how to love. I think I just chose men who are not capable of fully loving in a way I need. Hopefully I won't let real love fly over my head when it finally comes over my way, lol.
I'm seeing 2 more places today before we go out to dinner. This weekend my friends and I are going to a winery and apple picking, then we are going to attempt to make apple pies form scratch. (none of us have ever done it before) Should be fun:)
