I hear what you are saying, it is something you really want and your not sure if she can give it to you. Just keep in mind that the perfect match doesn't exist, every relationship is going to lack something, the next person might be more sexually compatible, but be severely lacking in another area that you are presently satisfied with.
Just try not to focus too much on the things your not happy about, try and make sure your primary focus is on the things that you really are happy with.
I gotta tell you, after ginger pointed out the diffusing your W did during your text convo with her, I went back and reread it focusing on her words instead of yours, and wow. I really missed how much she really understood your mindset, validated you and provided suggestions that she thought would help you reset. It is unlikely that a future partner that hasn't gone through this kinda stuff would have the understanding that your W does on how to communicate effectively and make a M stronger.
M - 9 1/2 years 5/5/16 - Bomb drop - 3 week EA 10/31/16 - We sold house 01/10/18 - D Finalized