Welcome to the MLC Forum. I noticed that this is your first posting. It would be helpful to you, as well as the posters, if you created a thread of your own. Don't be afraid...we all lurk for a bit and then post on someone's thread, but at the end of the day, we discover it's best to create our own thread so that we have something to look back on later to see just how far we've come.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.