I've decided not to buy unless I am sure. My dad is actually putting a little bit of pressure on me, but who wants to buy a home and feel not excited about it? I really am so torn about moving to another state. I know I really want to. I'm done in this expensive state. But my D is where I worry. Plus getting a new job. Again. I did find this really nice condo in a different development, a little above my price range, but so gorgeous. I'm going to keep a watchful eye. It's empty which means they are probably anxious to sell. I'm going to just keep a calm eye on it.
My well meaning friends luckily don't talk much about him at all. It is great I have a friendship with them separate with them. One saw I was clearly shaken and paid me a nice compliment. I appreciate it. It really did make me feel btter at the time.
No one gives me false hope. No one even wants me to be with him the way he is. I know what he did was wrong, the opposite of love, very selfish and not what a partner should do to me. I get it. I really really do. Just a bad week thrown off a bit. I was just having a hard time facing that yet another guy could toss me aside so easily. The only difference with this one is he has me believing he loved me. My bad.
Anyways, I've decided not to mention him anymore. I'm done. He's gone. I am single, I am surviving, I am making it all work, I am doing what needs to be done.
