WW Starting to talk again. Not sure if I want her.

[Surfer]

So D8 has been with me today as she has not been so well. I could afford to take time from work.

I am still really, really hurting from Sunday's Wedding Anniversary. Anyway, W picked up D8 and took her home just now. I miss them all so much. Got on well with W talked for 10-15 mins or so and looked each other in the eyes. Fairly jovial discussion. I was acting 'as if' however. I am determined to lift my mood today. I know I am bordering on being depressed and I need to snap out of it.

S6 is going swimming today and W asked if I wanted to take him (she can sit with poorly D8 - she's not very poorly, just something mild). I questioned whether this is allowing her to eat cake or just the right thing to do. I think it's the right thing to do so I am going to take him.

When I bumped into my W's cousin yesterday - she spent her time validating my W's re-written history. I had to make my excuses and leave it really made my blood boil. It annoys me when people try and 'dig' into your situation particularly when they have an agenda. Best just forget that and realise she's not worth thinking about. She's one of those people that always has an arguement on the go....yes, forget about that I think.

As W and I seem to be talking better I often find myself confused. Is she being nice or is she detached. Then again, why mind read. I know I need to detach again and focus on positive self talk. I also need to stop overthinking and just be kind and nice to her.

Surfer.