Albac - 7 months in. Life goes on.

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Thanks for the support everyone. I appreciate it all so much.

This forum has been the saver of my sanity many times in the last 8 months and even though I think my journey is somewhat over I will stay around to keep people updated and try to help anyone I can avoid what I have been through.

Now a run down of how my W sees things. We had our first real conversation yesterday it was calm and I controlled myself as best as I could buy I did break down a few times and so did she. I don't think she was crying because she cares for me I think she was crying because she feels bad for what she has done to me.

I validated as hard as it was and even at the point where all is lost I still evaluate every encounter and everything I say and do on weather it will have a positive effect or negative. I was furious and even talking to her about OM and their relationship and meeting my D2 made me want to smash everything I could see I kept it together and stayed calm.

We discussed what had happened in our R and she finally opened up a little and said she in the end had nothing but anger and resentment for me and she said that the anger will never go away. Basically blames me for everything although did say "it just wasn't working and it's both our faults we didn't communicate" I agree totally but I would do anything for her and she walked away and got involved with OM in less then 3 months.

As for my D2 and other man, in my W's eyes and as much as it rips me apart and I hate it so much I half understand her way of thinking. She said that it is at a point where she either introduces him to my D2 or she ends their relationship. She said that if she waits any longer and they get further down the road before he meets her and it doesn't work it will make things harder for her to cut him off.

Now I say I kind of understand but at the same time $@&@$$ hate this whole thing so much. I validated said I trust her decisions. I said very firm I hope you know what you are doing and please do not hurt our D2.

From now on I have no need to speak to her or spend any time with her I am done. Yet she still says we are a family and wants to do things with me and our D2?!! She has no idea about reality she said " I hope that when you find a new partner we can all be friends and get along together" I didn't even respond to that.

I said I have no interest in meeting the OM. She said that when I find a new partner she will want to meet her. Crazy

Anyway for now I am continuing to work hard on myself and have finally fully dropped the rope. The women that was my W is gone for now and I'm proceeding as such. I'm not worried about OM or my W only my D2. I guarantee that OM is gone in less the 6 months and her life will fall in heap. Such a shame to be here.

I am broken but I'm working my way back to who I want to be.