Confused on What to Do 2

[Eagle11]

Went to my sons cub scout meeting tonight where I got a little depressed. Saw several moms and dads there with their sons tonight and of course my mind wanders to my M or lack there of. I had a hard time concentrating and I was really frustrated at myself but I couldn't focus on anything else. I also was checking out the mom's at the meeting (not in a sexual way) and they don't remind me of my W anymore. These women seemed to be mom's first regardless of their careers and I can't see my W that way anymore. A couple of months ago I could see my W at one of these meetings interacting with the kids and giving it her full attention. Now I think if she went she would spend the whole time on her phone texting or scrolling through facebook.

When I got home my W was on couch with S2 watching football and drinking a glass of wine. I don't even know what started the conversation, but she tells me there are about 4 or 5 guys that consistently flirt with her. She said she doesn't know why, maybe it was all the weight she has lost. I wanted to say it might be the weight but it also might be the fact that you dress like you're going to the clubs/bars instead of going to work, but I kept my mouth shut. She will be out of town the next 3 days/ 2 nights (at OM #1 office working), but hopefully I can relax and take my mind off of it. In a way it was a good conversation tonight, because I can tell she hasn't really changed her mindset towards me even though we have been getting along well lately. I know she really doesn't want anything to do with me and I know that as long as these other men are giving her the attention then she will never be in a position to try our marriage again.

Also, I have noticed that my W's interaction towards me is different during the week when she has been to work. She is much more cold or distant towards me, but on the weekends she is much more her usual self. I don't know, but maybe all the attention she gets at work from these guys gets into her head,but on the weekends she just hangs around the house with nobody to flirt with except for the occasional text. She has said these guys that are flirting with her are older (mid 40s to 50) with families and that might be why the texts slow down on the weekend. So the weekends she is more likely to engage in conversations and hang out with me. I guess that might be cake eating.