Just working the process, but wondering when......

[cbtdad]

W and I discussed this a little bit at lunch on Friday. Things were fine during the discussion. The part that I didn't over react to when my blood pressure went up was her not wearing her wedding ring. I have zero control over some guy coming up and talking to her. I am sure she enjoyed the attention as we all do as humans. All I can do is trust that she understands boundaries and why it can be harmful to our marriage. I do plan on bringing this up again in MC on Thursday. It's definitely not something that is a boundary for me. We've had discussions about this. She works in an industry that's 90 percent males. She has a lot of platonic male friends. Her boundary as she looks for is for one of them saying something inappropriate or "crossing the line"
I was having a bad day at work Saturday and I guess frustrations of no sex still building in and it can led up to a text conversation I didn't like. Here is some of it:

W: Did you rename WIFI
cbtdad: They did it randomly. I'm sorry I spent 40 mins this morning on phone with them to fix wifi while son was bitching while you were sleeping. Next time I'll just wake you up
W: Why didn't you give me the heads up this morning. It's kind of important when I have an exam Monday
cbtdad: Your right. It's the same password
W: I got that. TV wont connect and I'm trying to set printer up now
cbtdad: I don't know W. Call Directv. I'm having a crappy day. just handle it
Some time passed
cbtdad: Did you figure it out? Are you mad at me now?
W: yes and yes
cbtdad: Glad you figured it out. Sorry you caught me on my 3rd deal of the day and Im frustrated that I feel like I do an awful lot now and sometimes feel taken for granted. Guess payback is a bitch
W: How was that taking you for granted. I just was upset you didn't tell me this happened.
W: Would you like son and I to bring you sushi for dinner?
cbtdad: Not just that. Its fine. No thanks on the sushi
W: Well I'm sorry you feel that way. I've tried to make an effort to not make you feel that way.
cbtdad: I know you have. But we disagree on love languages. It is what it is W
W: Yeah I know. And I've tried to do a little bit better but it's hard. There's so much hurt and pain and scared. I have tried cbtdad
cbtdad: not saying you haven't, but I'm at a point that its wearing me down. I don't want to be in a relationship without sex. Sorry. Not sure what to do from here
cbtdad: deal number 4. Plus this conversation with you. What a great day!!!
W: How is our convo negative? Maybe you should take a min and reset
cbtdad: idk. maybe you're right. I;m just not having a good day
W: Well finish that deal and try and reset your thinking. Nothing good is going to happen when you are like this
cbtdad: I know. Just frustrated in general. you aren't the only one who has experienced hurt and pain. So when you say that and you've tried, it upsets me. Not saying you haven't, not saying things are bad. Just frustrated
W: ok

I didn't saying anything after that. When she says "ok" that's a trigger for me. I've noticed it and have done a better job with the texting and not blowing up in person because of this.
Looking back on that text as I typed it I realized that it was foolish on my part.
But the "I've tried" got to me. It came across as she tried and its not gonna change. Which then had me think what Ginger talked about with me. That regardless of what I do or who I become I may never get it back with her. That maybe the damage is too far done
We did have a next text exchange yesterday. She said something about son that was nice and I responded:
cbtdad: I like the new son a little:) I really like us lately. Lets keep it up
W: Haha. I'm much happier. Just a few more tweaks when we can

So overall, things continue to move in the right direction. Obviously I am wanting that sexual relationship with my W. It is really hard when my LL is physical touch. I will bring this into MC Thursday. Haven't spoke about the text from Saturday and the stuff that happened with not wearing ring
Patience is something I'm having to learn