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I know the separation of the family is crazy painful. I happened to walk by a chuckie cheese after going in to buy balloons for my D's 2nd birthday for when she got home from celebrating her Bday with her dad. I had no clue what they were doing. Well, I found out when I saw my D, my ex, his OW celebrating in chuckie cheese. I watched my daughter's second birthday from the outside and wanted to die.


I think I read this story in one of your threads. It is crazy painful. I was thinking that more than the sadness of losing my significant other - at this point I am mourning the loss of an idealized childhood that I wanted for my kids that is just gone now. Dad will not be there all of the time and mom will struggle and there will be step parents along the line to confuse everything even further. What makes it even more gut wrenching for me is how cheerful and loving they still are around me (bless their heart), despite all of these changes happening all around us.


Me-45, W-37, T-10 yrs, M-9 yrs
D -7 yrs, S-5 yrs
BD-5/3/16, D filed 6/8/16