Yesterday/last night my GF and I had the talk about splitting up. I absolutely know it's the right thing to do, but it does hurt for a variety of reasons. She is a wonderful person in so many ways, but this isn't what I need in my life right now and because of where I am mentally and emotionally I am unable to give her everything she needs. The talk was sad but pleasant -- there was no screaming or negative energy... Both of us were calm and expressed our love and concern for each other. It was sad, but in my heart I can feel so much pressure disappearing now that we are on the process of ending this, and that -- so far -- it is happening without all of the ugliness that can happen.
So today I am feels my sad and a bit disappointed in myself because I am busting someone else. I know everything will be okay in time, but it [censored] right now.
Me 48, Her 50 (Same-Sex Couple) 3 Children Together: 9.5 years before BD BD: Week of 10/27/14 ExW started EA w OW 9/2014 ExW married OW 12/2015
