Mutual friend told me that he is not being his usual outgoing self at all lately. His friend told me "you know, you were the best thing that ever happened to him" I love his little girl. I miss her. It's all these things combined that tear me up.
Thank you for the compliment for being an exceptional mom. I'm not so much lately, though. I've been running ragged for her lately with no help from you know who, and she is become less appreciative and demanding. That, piled on with my exhaustion and sadness is not leaving me with much patience.
I messed up with her summer project, well, we both did. They had to read a book and do an assignment. She dislikes reading so it was always pulling teeth and she reads not to comprehend, but to get it over with. That, on top of my school, her being at camp in the summer all day, cheerleading 3 nights a week, and her fathers every other weekend, and just keeping the house running I left more of that project in her hands than I should have and that was a bad idea. So, last night she got home super late from a baby shower she went ot with my friend (I skipped out because I had to much to do, then she proceeded to rat me out to the host of the shower and told them I was too busy to come"
All that wordieness and the point is, I pad time is gone, and I am going to have to make more of an effort to stay on top of her work. She fights me like tooth and nail and throws fits, but I have no choice.
As far as the condos, I was not thrilled and my emotions are quite mixed. It's a downgrade from what I have now and I am having a hard time getting excited about it. I really don't know if this is the decision I want to make. My budget and area are extremely limited and I just don't want to settle. I just don't know what I want to do. I want to leave state, but I don't think I can:) I really would rather purchase a house, but I know I can't due to maintenance.
I'm trying here, but I am just an overwhelmed confused woman over here.
Tomorrow is the real birthday. Preparing for my night with D and ex.
