Had a really great weekend. Saw my family for my gramma's birthday, nothing too exciting there.
Yesterday spent time with my SIL a nieces. We went to the small zoo that's near my house and the mall and then had dinner together. SIL did talk about my W a little bit. My nieces birthday is coming up and my W and I are both invited, she also told me she wasn't sure if my W would bring ow to my nieces party... I feel that would be rude not just to me but to her family but if she is there I'll suck it up and be polite because I'm focused on being the best me I can be. I told her I wouldn't make it to Thanksgiving this year since I was going to be in Florida and she told me that means I have to come to Christmas. She told me my W is being a real sh!thead. (her words not mine).
I guess a few weeks ago when my other SIL was in town my IL's minus my W went out and ended up talking about how much they miss me.
SIL still thinks that there's a chance my W is going to change her mind and she said she knows that my W has been feeling super overwhelmed and is really struggling.
IDK, I guess I can understand why SIL thinks that there's still hope and at the same time I don't really feel like I care at this point.
A few weeks ago my BIL expressed concern that maybe I should have no contact at all with their family because it would make it harder for me to move on and be happy. SIL said he's pretty much over that now. I did tell SIL that all things considered I am actually very happy with my life right now and I don't feel that being in contact with them has made moving forward and focusing on me any harder.
I was actually surprised. I didn't bring up my W at all, everything we talked about mostly came from SIL. The only thing that killed me inside a little was my older niece asked me "where's aunt xx. why isn't she here?" and I just told her "aunt xx was busy today and she couldn't come." and my niece then said "I miss her, I haven't seen her in a long time" and it just killed me, like literally I felt my heart break for this kid.
Work this week is going to be rough! so much to do and so little time!
Hope every one else's weekend went well!
W:32 M:26 T:5 yrs M: 3 yr BD: JUN 2016 W Moved out: early JUL 2016 W Filed for D: mid JUL 2016 EA: 06/16? PA: 07/16 Moved in w/ ow: 07/16 D final: 10/16
