And you'll have a different perspective in another 60 days. And another, and another.
It will be years before this stops being a daily part of your life, something that you'll reflect on and continue to try to understand in different lights. So don't etch anything into a stone tablet, because you are very early on, and you're still bouncing around like the needle on a scale you just step on.
I always think of newcomers as people at a party that have had too much to drink but insist they can drive home. Nothing wrong with having a few drinks. Nothing wrong with being loose. But there is a big problem with jumping behind the wheel. That's when lives get changed. Unilaterally as you say. Don't let that happen. Understand you are not in a spot to be making life changing decisions right now.
Keep processing, keep posting, keep trying to understand what is going on. That is good qt. But while I know your emotions are overpowering and things look really clear right now, be careful in believing them to be true. Stay calm. Try to avoid taking any action until you go 90 days without any major changes of outlook.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
