maybe you never truly leave here

[forward]

Hello, I see a few familiar names. I drop in here every now and again to see new chapters to stories.

When I came on here, I had a 14-month-old baby and was depressed and struggling. DB made me realize I needed to have fun again. It took X 3 years to get around to divorcing me. During that time, I did a lot of work on myself and learned a lot overall.

Not long after D, OW dumped X--not surprising--and his life took some terrible turns. It doesn't look great from where I sit but I don't see him much any more.

On the positive side, I am happily remarried and have successfully blended families (at least so far--it's an ongoing process but I believe we are doing quite well). The baby is now 10!

On the negative side, I have struggled with a strange lung ailment (and no, I am not a smoker) that doesn't seem that serious but that also nobody seems to be able to help me with as much as I need. H is supportive and I feel much less worried than I would have been with X.

Interestingly, while I don't think about X, I have occasional dreams with him. I chalk it up to the way that the past comes up in dreams.

I have always suggested to newbies to try hard and do your very best. No matter what happens, you will be OK in the end. I know what it's like to have your heart breaking...but if you give things your best shot, you will know that you did.

There really can be happiness on the other side.