Me and Midlife Wife and Midlife II

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Eric -

CT

First I can relate. Second, I want you to think about this for a second. 1) What can you really control in life 2) What does control really provide you with and why is that important.?

I am sorry that you are able to, on the flip, it did shape who we are. 1. I can control how I feel about myself, which in turn influences how I respond to the environment around me. As of my understanding for where I am now that is. 2. Control provides us with a feeling of security, perhaps some small prediction for the future, a likelihood of outcomes, some influence over the occurrences in our lives. This is important for many reasons, but in terms of speaking on how I was living and am challenging down - it was not thought of in terms of being important, but I would have to say to get what was wanted.

I was never given tools from them to learn control.

I might assume that you were not given much tools at all. When you say control..do you mean control yourself, your emotions or circumstances surrounding you?

What is it that goes through your mind if you do not feel “right”?

Ha, yes your assumption would be accurate. Yes, for the time period of my life I was referring to in that quote I was speaking to all three items you identify.

Now as for what goes through my mind if I don't feel right? I would say I really only feel this when its a case where I feel decidedly correct. And so, I would have to say evidence for why I feel so correct goes through my mind.

I would also say, that since this conversation with you and Mach1 began a few weeks ago, I have been paying more attention to this matter in my head. I passed two tests this weekend. Don't feel like explaining, just know that I passed.

my personal history teaches me that I value my own opinion more.

And why is that? Why the difference between work, school and your personal life? Do you only value intellect, which brings me to my next question. What is it that YOU value and why?

Well, yes that is what my history teaches me about ho I was, but I am working on being more open, attentive, and understanding these days. The difference in me at home vs. other areas of life I noticed many years ago. And my answer would be that I had absolutely no idea how to balance my life. I did not prioritize right. As well, I came home and it just felt like more work - that was my attitude anyway.

Of course not.

I am answering on myself here, not good ole' USA and GMO free food, etc.
integrity of character - because this represents so many other traits for me in my morals, trustworthiness, reliability as a human.
wisdom - intellect present or not, but how and when and where the application of knowledge comes in.
Growth - this comes from challenge, self-imposed or otherwise. growth may be towards goals identified or the needs unknown.
Compassion - backbone of love and understanding.
Friendship - I have many friends, many close ones that is. I am gifted by life in this way.
Giving back - volunteer work, outreach, putting more back in.
connection - I enjoy making connections with others.

How’s your day going so far?

And while I answered this the other, it is now a new day. And, quite stellar - did everything I set out to this weekend and a little more. And once I hit send, me and the little black dog will go for a walk and I shall return to read a few more pages in a text book.