Papers are filed, here comes the D. Focus on me

[Cherry]

Thanks blu! The thoughts and anger, I found that journaling it helped me release it so it did flow elsewhere. I don't particularly feel much anger at all, and it's really strange, I haven't felt much the past few days. I have it in my head he is going, so my mind is focused on what I need to do, how to protect my little family, financials etc.

Thank you, yes I thought he had a place lined up- he told me he would be gone in a few weeks. Then he began to show me places, and I politely but firmly told him I would not help him look, I will not help him tear apart my family. I think there will be more calm, because the intermittent in and out can be difficult, especially with a little one who knows when to expect daddy. I shall hopefully get a few renovations done that we were considering, no need to not follow through because he has gone, and focus on making it as cosy and loving for my new arrival. I don't doubt that I may have a little wobble when he actually leaves. I think it will do him good to live alone and deal with everything himself. I've always sorted bills, taxes, housework, cooking- you name it I did it.

Thanks blu! I do feel somewhat better than I have in previous weeks. Feeling like I'm taking charge of my future. I shall be the man and the woman of the house for a while, and I will thrive at that too!

Had a great day GAL with family and S today, just nice to enjoy some sun and eat some lovely bbq food. Seeing him laughing and having fun brings a smile to my face.