The Fight For Self III

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ForGump - Late to the party, been very busy, but Indeed I am.

Have had my son tonight. Fantastic. Saw my favorite band last night, was excellent. Saw them with spouse, she asked, she paid. Night went really well. But I am not reading into it. I see it as a sign of only moving things forward by 1 yard at best, remaining equal at nominal, not really sure how things could get worse so that one is open. I could easily loose two yards tomorrow. And my son was at her place last night w/ a babysitter.

So this morning she opened w/ some spew - she called me, spew was not at me for me, but at how difficult son is to handle, her money, the cost of groceries, etc. Just listened. "What a horrible follow up to a great evening", I thought. She asked if I could get son 3 hours prior to what we agreed upon. I am well past any DB stuff pertaining to my son and saying I have plans, now I will not offer to take him early, I have never been asked, but after what she said and how she sounded - yeah, you want him out I got him - for him and me. So she is collapsing and for many other reasons that that brief example. I am not happy to say that, but during last night before the concert, she did say "I need to make this better, I need to get better" which was positive, and I was proud of myself that I did not finish that sentence for her, just looked, listened, and nodded. In the event the above is positive, there is still a long way to go as I feel really good on my own being me.

Anyway, this morning was all about me - studied, paid bills, played guitar, got coffee, cleaned apartment, rode skateboard, picked up son at 2pm. To quote Mike Muir "bring me down?...you can't bring me down" Banner day my friend(s).