Papers are filed, here comes the D. Focus on me

[Cherry]

Thanks phoebe. I'm determined not to let it stop me from doing things. And in the fresh air kinda helps. Was nice to walk, cut, take in the nature.

Afterwards I had people say I should have called them, maybe I should have really. I sat and read Cosmo. And had an awkward cervical examination ( dignity goes out of the window in pregnancy, everyone seems to take a glance).

When I came home wh was just sat outside in his car. Mind reading but I think he was avoiding me for fear I would question him about last night as he said he would collect me, but didn't answer my message telling him how I got on (as requested) and that I was done. So I flipped a 180 on him and was fine. Tbh, I was. I have zero expectations of him or that he would follow through with any actions.

Evening time, a pamper for me. I leave him be. Let him ride out his own emotions. Soon he won't be here so I won't have a clue what's going on. But we are on seperate journeys.