Phase 2 contd.

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Fortitude.

Ive been thinking about that word over the last 36 hours. What it means..... How I exhibit it... How others exhibit it, etc.

This morning I completed my triathlon! It was not easy. Not at all, but I did it. Part of me was wondering if should go through with it because I have been sick with 100 degree fever for the last 2 days. I wasn't sure if I could or should push it..... But I committed to it and I was not going to let that stop me! I did well. Had I been 100%, I'm sure I could have done better, but I'm still so proud and I had fun out there! There's been a couple physical barriers to this race (sprained my ankle and couldn't train for 6 weeks), but I made sure to not let anything get in my way. Fortitude, right?

So, these physical endeavors have all been a part of my DB goals and GAL plan. During my last two half marathons, which were emotional, I cried over h. I cried for the relationship, I cried that he wasn't there to support me as my best friend, and I cried for him as a person. Today, was emotional too. No tears, but instead the whole 2.5 hours I was able to reflect on how much stronger I am. I know I'm stronger than I think and I know I'll be ok. We'll all be ok. We've got a lot of fortitude running through all our veins, brains, and hearts.

Much love, dbers.