Five Years Ago Today

[tadpole1025]

Thanks Mighty, MrBond and Exquisite...

Mighty, I do enjoy my life now. It's more peaceful. Haha.

MrBond, I'm not sure what you mean by this:

Even the way you described your W is worrisome. You really shouldn't even notice that type of thing the way that you have been.

The only thing that I said in my most recent post is:

We do not talk. My sons told me that she was in a really bad accident a few weeks ago and totaled her car. She claims that she doesn't remember what happened. She is working her third job in less than two years. I can't even remember when I saw her or spoke to her last. It's been more than a year.

I mean, you're struggling to go out and do what you used to enjoy. In a way, I get a feeling that the community here and you reaching out is a way of trying to have a connection with people.

I'm not really "struggling" to get out anymore. I choose not to. I get a lot of socializing in at work and when I do choose to get out of the house, I'll try a restaurant that I've never been to or go to the park or something. I don't do the bar scene since I no longer drink.

My post wasn't really meant as a "reach out." It was more of an update/thank you/goodbye. There isn't really anything new in my sitch and hasn't been for a while. I'll come here now and then to post to others, but most likely won't be starting any new threads unless something drastic happens.

I'm no longer seeing a counselor and really should see a doctor soon. It's been too long. I've lost some weight recently due to the fact that I gave up soda, drink lots of water and have been walking more.

I feel the best I've felt in a long time. To be honest, I believe getting my own place really helped. Being in a cramped apartment with three grown sons was just a constant reminder of the mess she left us in. I'm good. I don't socialize much. (Ok, maybe I should.) But...I get to come and go as I please and do whatever I want and when I want. Do I still have days? Sure, but they are occurring less and less.

Anyways, that's all for now. It's laundry day.

Tad