Confused on What to Do 2

[AJM]

Hi Eagle.

Thanks for the words. I see what you mean about making a difference to me. I think doing something new even if its as simple as getting a haircut will be a nice change in my life. Maybe just mixing up the routine that I always do will have a positive change in my mindset. I need to do more, but I have been trying to change my usual mindsets when it comes to things. Maybe step out of my comfort zone a little.

What you may not realize just yet, is exactly what you are starting to do is the best thing you can do. Mixing things up keeps your brain sharper. It causes you to change focus and can be a good outlet for you during this stress.
Depression is thought to be anger turned inward. But it's also sadness at the situation. Try to work through those feelings because you'll have to feel them. At some point at least. The sooner you do, the better for you.
Your therapist is very smart and you got some great advice and perspective here. And I totally understand what you mean about talking to somebody who listens. I felt the same way with the IC. I can tell you that Job's words were very true in my case. My MLCr went to therapy but felt that there was nothing wrong with her. That's when the MC became my IC. My ex told stories to the C that changed each week. The C thought I was an abusive father, a monster, an ogre and much taller But it was the third session when she took me aside and let me know she understood what was going on and began to help me regain my perspective. Without that help, I'm not sure I would have done as well as I did nor as quickly. Keep going. You'll know when it is time to stop talking to her.

And keep trying new things for YOU. That's the key - doing things for YOU and your son.

You may want to look at an old thread here - Caliguy. And see the changes in his perspective as he went on. I think you'll find it useful.

AJ