Thank you my lovely friends. I'm a bit of a mess in my heart right now. Wouldn't know it outwardly, but yeah, I'm questioning so much right now.
My ex is coming to D's game tonight and my dad and stepmom which is always an uncomfortable sitch. Good news is that after we are going to look at condos and go out for D's bday.
Linda, I think I do think I'll get back what I give sometimes. But it's not completely why I do it. Sometimes from ex Ng I think I'll get a glimpse of the guy I met a year ago. He gave me a small hint before he left that night. Truth I believe is he is resisting me as hard as he can ( I'm not pursing though) and trying to embrace the other one. That's his path. My heart and head have an awful time reconciling it. What's happened happened and no matter how much I hope and wish, I can't change a situation that is into what I want it to be.
