Cherry. H is filing and leaving. Working on me

[Cherry]

I'm thinking he is beginning to see that. I have accepted that this is happening, the papers are going through and he is leaving. I truly am accepting that this is happening and that he is no longer mine.

I do feel he is pushing for a d to ease his guilt, without a doubt. Otherwise there simply would not be any need for a rush. I'd say I'm being more civil with him mainly because while we are under the same roof, my s is seeing a lot of anger between the two of us. I know I can't nice him back, and I wouldn't want him the way he is right now. My focus right now is my s, my health and my baby. He is making a huge mistake (in my opinion) but he needs to go and figure that out for himself. I agree, when he's out- there will be no popping over for food, casual chats, nothing.

I agree a bit more strength will definitely serve me well. Right now, he's starting to look more like the pathetic one moping around. Not me. He even said today that I look as though I am dealing with things well, a comment I ignored as I felt it was a bit of a temp check to get in my mind and see how I felt a bit it all.