Confused on What to Do

[Eagle11]

I had my 2nd therapist appointment today and I must say I actually like going to this therapist. I came in feeling so depressed but left in a much better frame of mind. She told me many of the same things you all have told me hear and it was nice to talk to someone in person and get that kind of feedback. She really focused at the end of our session in making sure I'm not blaming myself for these EA's. She said the EA's are my W's choice but are not on me. If she was not happy in the marriage it is not an excuse to seek someone else. We also talked about ways to get me in a better place and will focus more on that next week. This might sound crazy but I wish I could go to therapy more often. Even if its just to talk to someone in person who will listen to me and acts as if they care.

The therapist explained my W's thinking as best she could and allowed me to get a better understanding of where this is all coming from. She believes this stems from her childhood and lack of relationship with her biological father as well as her stepfather who passed away. My therapist truly believes my W will not get better without counseling but there is nothing I can do about that. My therapist feels my W has been holding onto a lot of this anger/depression for 30 years since her parents divorced. My therapist admired me for sticking through this so far but told me just as you all have that this could take a long time for my W to get through, especially without therapy.