I love that Gwen. I love giving NO energy to the haters. AWESOME.
Today is Matt's 50th birthday. It's the end of the annual Birthday parade... mine, Louisa's and his...
For the most part, it's a non-issue. Little bit of sadness around such a big birthday being celebrated with strangers, not his family. Pushing the ideas of how he is celebrating from my mind.
I struggled with sending a simple text. I hate how things like that are such a big decision with MLC/Addiction. I remember fondly the days when something so small wasn't a big deal.
He sent me a Happy Birthday, so, in the spirit of mirroring... I sent a simple Happy 50th. He responded Thank You. I guess for that small grain of hope that he will wake up/hit a bottom... that's what pushed me in the direction of acknowledging the b'day...
So strange, yesterday, I was feeling I would ignore it. I mean, seriously, this man treated us all with such rejection, nastiness, etc... who could blame me for ignoring? Then, God worked some of HIS Godliness... in a phone call to a friend who lives in Pennsylvania and never knew me when I lived in Ohio--she mentioned she spent time at this super small, rural development near where I lived in Ohio. A place where Matt worked for years and years. It was a part of our daily life for, at least, ten years. An incredibly small blurb that may not even be marked on a calendar. I took it as a sign to at least acknowledge this big deal birthday of a man I've known since I was 12 years old, when he told his mom he was gonna marry me someday.
On a lighter note, going to pick up my new Prius this afternoon :-)
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
