There is also something else, i realized for a couple of weeks now i've become infatuated with female colleague who brings me climbing.
She's extremely likeable, hot too, makes me look like a sissy at climbing but what draws me most is that she has a big heart.
I havnt done anything or said anything. Actually i might be avoiding her cept we are in the same office. Its wierd, i never noticed her or other women before but now....
anyho im just journaling this. I am not going to make a move and hope its just a passing phase and as far as i know she just thinks of me as a friend.
Seems like a natural progression Natus. I've noticed at times that I also "see" women moreso than i would have in the past. I almost wonder if that sort of thing comes about as we rebuild confidence in ourselves as part of this process. I also have no intention of pursuing anyone else currently, but I can see that further down the road I'll be fine if my W decides not to come back. Sad and comforting at the same time i guess.
Don't beat yourself up about it. I think it's probably healthy and shows you're in a good spot w/ yourself. Keep doing what you're doing Natus!
Me39 M11 : T13 D9 BD 5/31/16 In House S until 6/21/17 Divorced 10/5/18
