Well, as W and I were going to bed last night, my "nightmare scenario" began to play itself out. After we kissed goodnight, it went something like this:
W: I guess I'm kind of nervous about this appointment tomorrow. I don't know what I'm going to talk about.
Me: That's not encouraging. I can't really tell you what to talk about with her.
W: I guess I don't really know why I'm going.
Me: Well, I don't want you to feel like you're going there just because I want you to go there.
W: I mean, I have physical issues...
Me: Well, I think after last weekend, I would not agree that you have these overwhelming physical issues that are preventing sex.
W: Plus there's all this stress...
Me: Do you think you have more stress now than, say, 2 years ago?
W: Yes
Me: Well, the other day I went back and read the journal I'd written 2 years ago when we were seeing (last MC), and we were dealing with the very same issues. Nothing has changed... everything is still the same.
W: But now I feel like I could fix it.
Me: Fix it how?
W: By trying harder, maybe... reading that book (the Dr. Phil book)
Okay, so now I'm going WTF... I think she's actually losing it. She seems to be in such deep denial that she can't even see she's talking in circles. She's coming up with excuse after excuse, and when I remove an excuse she comes up with another one. I'm not in sales, but I've done sales enough to know about "overcoming objections" - that's what she's doing here. Actually, I guess that's going both ways. She raises an objection, and I remove it (example: she's dry, I order AG), then she raises another objection. It's like peeling an onion - just layer after layer.
After the conversation, we both lay there for a while without sleeping. I could feel the coldness between us. Again this morning I woke up an hour before the alarm, unable to sleep. This has got to stop!
I am slowly going crazy 1-2-3-4-5-6 switch... Crazy going slowly am I 6-5-4-3-2-1 switch...
