Cherry. H is filing and leaving. Working on me

[Painter]

For some reason today, he seems to feel the need to check up on me. Perhaps it's guilt. He commented that I had took all pictures down of us, he seemed shocked with that. Lord knows why, I'm not even gonna try and figure that out. He told me how he is moving, and how once the L has drawn up the petition to look over it together. Tbh I don't want to be a part of this, they can send it to my L to deal with. He says how he wants to be on good terms and be a friend of mine, but right now he is worried that I would take it the wrong way. He told me to never say never to us ever being together in the future. I don't want to focus on that, but it doesn't sound like someone confident in their decision. He told me when and where he is going to be moving to. I tried again to validate and listen and not spew or get angry, and the tears where minimal, I pulled myself together.

I have had today to have my tears, they've flowed. And he has moved from complete dishonesty and flat out ignoring me to approaching me and partial honesty.

Today I feel I let go of hope and accepted, my family who didn't know, now do. And I have got in loud and clear that he is done and that m with wh is dead and gone. So after today, and the tears- tomorrow is a new day. And it will be time to stand up, dust myself down and straighten my crown. And just show him what an absolute fool he is to loose a diamond like me. In our lifestyle, and our community of liars and double crossers, he had a true ride or die chica like me. He won't get that again. He's lost the best damn loyal person to ever walk in his life. More fool him.

He probably isn't confident in his decision, but doubt doesn't mean he won't proceed. He's like a kid going downhill on a sled - not sure it's safe, but he's on a roll and doesn't know how to stop. His brain is not being run by the frontal cortex right now, he's flooded by powerful chemicals. He really isn't in his right mind.
http://brainworldmagazine.com/the-neuroscience-of-infidelity-flame-addiction/

Remember: Believe nothing of what they say and only half of what they do.

I don't want to take your hope away from you, but WH said until the day I left that 'I haven't stopped trying'. At that time, he and OW had planned her move into our home for weeks.

He also said things like 'maybe we can remarry again later' and that he could move here if I got a good job.

It's obvious now that this was all nonsense, things he said to maybe comfort himself and try to feel less guilty about what he was doing.