She went on a MLC fog rant: she's "never felt more alive before than this year" (MLC started in January). The house has been like a cage and she's been in her own little prison. She said when I asked her to marry me (December '01) that she had already given up on me and was moving on, but she just went along because getting married was the "next logical step". She has wondered this entire time (13 years) whether or not she should have married me. I made her "feel ugly" like a "worthless little troll". I have NEVER paid her a compliment. I insult every accomplishment she shares with me. I have behaved more and more miserable towards her with each passing year. I never bothered paying attention to the kids until "this year".
Brubeck I don't have much advice to share, but when I read this paragraph it hit home. My W has basically told me the same thing only not really in an angry tone. My W has rewritten history and remembers only the bad. I think it's only to make them feel better about all the hurt they are doing to their families.
Keep your head up, we are in this together. I'm pulling for you.
M39, W36 T12, M10 S6,S2 Discovered EA 8/8 that started 7/31
