Trying to detach - part deux

[Coly23]

Hey Surfer, just listened to Hard-Fi, brilliant song! You now have to listen to Years and Years!

I think what I'm finding hard to believe is that he will ever love me again even if I make all theses changes and this fear keeps me stuck and ruminating (see my previous post!). It's just so hard to believe that our S's can detach from us so easily and shut off their feelings so completely knowing how much they are hurting us.

It is like moving in quicksand and I still don't think I have figured out how to pull myself out. I think that I have tried to do things too quickly by expecting to detach as easily as H, but I know now that isn't me and I need a bit more time. In the meantime I am showing H my best side even though I am hurting inside. I don't know if it is because of this or if H is just happier now he is in his own but I think I have seen him softening a bit towards me in his texts. They no longer come across business like and to the point. I'll take anything I can get!

Thanks Surfer, as with all the others who have been kind enough to post on here I appreciate your advice and support.