I can’t talk to anyone, I feel very alone which makes it more difficult for me. Words don’t help very much anyway. People generally fall into one of several categories:
-'Get over it' (Thanks pal, and yeah I’m trying. Next time your world comes crashing down I’ll make sure to give you the same advice) -'Just give it time' (I’m so deep in it right now, this advice is almost meaningless) -‘I’m sorry’ (Followed by uncomfortable silence)
Sometimes I talk to other people in the same situation. They’re basically not listening, or they give me one of the above lines. Or they start talking about their own situation, which tends to make me feel bad too - and then I parrot back one of the above lines to them.
There are also a few friends and family who I can talk to this stuff about, but I feel sorry for them and I feel like I am leaning too much on them.
So that’s why I feel like I’m not fit to be around people right now, and I’m going through a phase where I’m burying myself in my work.
Me-45, W-37, T-10 yrs, M-9 yrs D -7 yrs, S-5 yrs BD-5/3/16, D filed 6/8/16