cld, I've kept my mouth shut, because I am not in a place right not to talk to a wall.

But the way you speak to these people who are trying to help you, which is disgustingly disrespectful, did you speak to your wife like that? Did you speak to your children that way? When she had an opinion that differed from yours, did you insult her and tear her down? Did you speak to friends, colleagues, people you associated with in person this way? Or do you only reserve it for the people on these boards?

Because if you can answer "yes" to any of those questions, it is not a MLC or a troubled childhood that is keeping your W away.