@vapo, better days are right here - I don't hope for a better future... I am no longer married to a selfish person that does not love me. How can things get better?
@coco - it's not overdoing it and it's not psychotic either. It's about detaching yourself from emotions, consciously and accepting that that emotion is wasted. Tears are wasted, unless it's tears of joy. Those are the only tears that I cry now.
With this mindset, everyone else but herself is to blame for her actions, like a 5 year old child. So I should have caught her and swept her off her feet as she was falling, but thats the thing, sandi says "let them fall, drop them"! I gave up on the M after 1 month, once i realised that she was long gone, this was the tip of the iceberg i was seeing now. I do not question my actions at all - I was doing the right thing for the right reasons, and I will do it again and again to achieve the same outcome. Thinking that I could change my fate, is fruitless, I know that I am not in control of my life anymore - this whole process taught me that.
So give up control and you will sleep like a baby.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
