Detachment and the end of limbo, sort of...too

[Phoebe]

You are absolutely right, Painter, and thank you for that take on things. All of those were the reason I was trying to avoid getting myself into this kind of situation.

Today was resoundingly... meh. Not particularly good, not particularly bad. I guess I was feeling pretty ambivalent most of the day.

I did do one things that was purely fun, and that was to take a trio of monarch caterpillars and deliver them to my H-friend after my therapist appointment. She's as excited about watching them go from caterpillar to chrysalis to butterfly as I am, so it was really nice to be able to share them with her. I haven't raised any in about 10 years, so I'm super excited. I already have my first chrysalis, and she will probably have one by morning. They are gorgeous - little shiny green objects with perfect bright dots of metallic gold dotted in a line across the top and a couple more dots on the bottom. On the day that they will emerge as butterflies, the green chrysalis turns clear. Well, it turns clear, but it looks like it turns black because you can see the butterfly inside and it looks all black at first until the wings expand.

Anyway, it's truly a fascinating little project and I recommend it to anyone, with or without kids in the house, and being able to share that with her was the highlight of my day.

Beyond that, I had to talk to l-freind about last night and it was OK. He gets it, but it damaged some of my trust in him, I think. I don't think he understood exactly what I was saying. I was certainly saying that I was more than just upset about how my day was going.