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[123Gwen]

I am sorry about your dog. Pets are a member of the family.

Asthma attacks are very serious. It is understandable that you are exhausted and not feeling up to par with all the decision making.

Rouky - This is tough and you have friends here. You'll work through things. You don't have to figure it all out today. Children don't expect us to be perfect. Let them know you were really feeling unwell and that when people are recovering from things like an asthma attack they are often times emotional. It is honest and we all cry. It is good for them to understand that we all have rough days.

As for drop off and pick up can you meet somewhere neutral? If you do a quick exchange in neutral space (like the grocery store lot) then you can keep it short and civil. Is it ideal? Maybe not but it is easier on you and the kids and it keeps the focus on the business of life rather than this rollercoaster.

Hang in there. Allow yourself time to rest and renew before admonishing yourself - you are just doing the best you can.