yah.. I just need encouragement, and maybe I do have a few questions that come up... She has not told her kids, or really any one, as far as I know, except maybe two close friends of hers that she can confide in.
She told me yesterday that she decided to file for divorce.. but since we have only one bed, she said she would sleep on the couch. She wasn't sure if I'd be comfortable with her sleeping in the same bed with me. I told her that I was fine with that... We made it through one night.. it might get a bit difficult though... I am a guy, and she is attractive!
Still, right now, I am trying to stay disconnected.. not cold... but not warm with her either...
She appreciates my help around the house. I stayed up until two the other night trying to get a shower door installed...
She told me that she would do the dishes last night, as I had done them several times before... Not sure if it was her way of seeing if I care enough to see past her words, and do the dishes anyways...
I did them while she went out to a friend's house..who I confirmed she did end up being with... not too concerned that she has found another guy.
This morning she texted me, thanking me that I did the dishes..I said "yup".. trying to not be overly warm.
anyway, it is kinda hard, as I am a bit sad, and miss her texting me, telling me "xoxoxos" and such.
It's funny how a person can seemingly turn on a dime.. one week she is loving.. the next.. "don't push, I know you are in panic mode, but I need my space" and "i want a divorce" a few days later..
Still she is treating me well, texting me about normal household business stuff.. neither of us are acting out.. I dont want to get my hopes up.. but I am willing to fight to win her back! Just the productive kind of fight..
