Lost at the moment (2)

[lfm]

Hi OneLess,

No real updates to provide. Did have a conversation about the D with STBX over the weekend, trying to get her to think about things like splitting off bills, and that type of thing. She was receptive to what I was saying, no arguments, and feel like we're generally on the same page as far as what is coming.

The thing that struck me during that conversation is that she made a comment that I've been different since I came back from the business trip, which I have been. I've finally let go and and I think she's picking up on that. I also feel truly happy for the first time in a long, long time, so I think she's picking up on that as well. I responded thanks and that I feel like I've found my old self again. She responded with something along the lines of you'll be the person I fell in love with after it's too late. Not really sure what to make of that if anything. I'm not really worried about it as I'm moving on with my life.

I still don't think she really gets what is happening, she's too wrapped up in her fog to understand, but if you've read my threads, you'll see that she hasn't been the typical WW either. She's never changed her behavior towards the kids or skirted on any of her repsonsibilities. Most of the time she's her usual self, she just disaapears from time to time to call OM, text OM, or leaves to see OM.

I'm sure she'll figure out what exactly she's done at some point, but time will tell.