Your posted this over on Huddy's thread and I have brought it here to avoid any more hijacking of Huddy's thread.
"Job,
Where is his current thread? You are telling me he is out of the woods now and his family is perfect? He hasn't even updated his signature in 5 years, and I should listen to him? I don't think so. I am listening to you, job, to Irish, to qt4, to the guy that came up with the "chaos child" explanation that I am not allowed to name here, to MWD and most importantly I am listening to my instinct."
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.