Confused on What to Do

[Eagle11]

Update:

This weekend was a good one for me. I got out and did some things and just tried to enjoy the long weekend. Also, spent some time with the boys and took them out for dinner on Saturday night. All was pretty good, with very little drama.

The W and I got along fine when we were around each other. We actually had 2 talks this weekend. On Friday she got emotional talking about her stepdad that had died of ALS years ago. She was crying worse than I have ever seen her. She told me she is not going to go back to therapist she had been going to and would find a new one. I worry that she will just give up on therapy all together because she is not getting the results she wants. She is so impatient and thinks everything should be fixed right away. I think she has only gone to 4 or 5 therapist sessions.

We had another talk on Sunday night. This one was less emotional but still good. She is trying to figure things out as I am. She has not been angry towards me and in fact has done a 180 and has been very nice. I did not bring up the OM to her but she brought him up to me and claims it was strictly texting and nothing physical. She also claims most of the texts were about work, which I know is a lie but I did not say anything to her. She also told me that men flirt with her all the time (she is an attractive female in a male dominated industry). She said most don't know she is married and she does flirt back many times because it makes her feel good. She almost has a bipolar or different personality every day. I have no idea how she is going to be until I actually see her, she is very unpredictable.

Whenever we do talk I know to not believe anything she says. If I hadn't been on this site I would actually be believing that there was really hope for us right now, but I know that is a long way off. I know she could just be manipulating me right now to get her way so I will be careful. It will be easier now that she goes back to work tomorrow, she will be around a couple of hours tomorrow night and I don't have to be around her.