A door opening...

[Sotto]

Thanks V and Esame. Yes, as time goes on it is easier to see SS as a separate person to XH and he and I build some new memories. When he came, we had a nice chat about some of the books we read together at bed time (I always used to do the reading) and how much he loved them. That was nice. I would have loved to ask if OW made the trip to the US to spend time with XH's family, but I managed not to - pats self on back.

Visited a physio friend last week who told me I have a wonky pelvis (SI joint) - not back at all! I now have some exercises and strategies to manage it. Seems it is a misalignment issue and treatable with some further sessions too - progress!

Saw NG last week. I've retreated a little with the texting and he doesn't really initiate if I don't. But in person, he was very warm and asking me Q's about some stuff we'd texted about. I'll see him later this week I think. We'll see. He did come up with a classic line of 'I'd give you a kiss, but I've been eating tomato soup.' (He's never suggested kissing me before!) That one made me chuckle a little to myself afterwards..

Otherwise, I'm doing a little decorating and generally getting sorted. Enjoying being able to choose what I like and planning a little housewarming party for my divorce group chums.

I don't think of XH all that much. I still shake my head a little sometimes - in a 'did that really happen to me' kind of way, but generally I'm not in much pain about it. Have I completely moved on. I guess a part of me would still like for him to turn back and then ours would be a sitch where there was regret. But I think that's more from a perspective of validating me than me actually wanting us to be together again.

I signed up for a borrow my dog scheme and had a chat with someone I know about walking their lovely dog sometimes. I'm also toying with the idea of 'rock choir' this Autumn, but that may be one GAL item too far....we'll see...

Anyway, that's it from me for now and hugs to you all xx