Another interesting day. Now I'm dreading meet up with H, I can't do it anymore. I had a couple of asthma attacks last night. Today got back from work and my dog was having a fit. I panicked, took him to the vet, let H know about it and he agressively accused me of wanting to put down an healthy dog. Since I have moved house he has been having regular fits, and I can't take him for walks anymore as he collapses on the pavement. I did mention to H that we need to consider this option about a week ago.
I don't want to put my dog down but it's really hard to deal with the dog (when he is I well as I give him all my attention), and my kids at the same time. H made me feel like a piece of cheese in front of my kids because I was crying and according to him I was over reacting! He said that I always see the negative side of things. I'm trying to change but I'm exhausted with this whole situation. One day I want to save my M, one day I don't! Seeing H so regularly is slowly killing me. There is no other alternative as his family leaves on the other side of town and dropping the kids to them won't be fair. I don't know what to do. I want closure one way or the other.
H said if vet finds that the dog is fine he will have him full time. I don't want my dog to play happy family with her and her kids! The dog is sleeping with my every night and he is my companion, but I have to realise that it's too much hard work for me now that he is unwell.
