Still Here

[Elly4]

Sotto, I've been doing some thinking about what to do for me. I've been so focused on working and doing what's best for our s.

So what am I doing to re attach me...

Well, I'm back on here. I'm making an effort to think about myself and my life instead of just surviving. It's a constant battle. It's much easier to retreat and "sleep" through my sitch. So I'm making myself come on here. I'm starting to participate in other's threads again as well.

Hmm...I gave myself permission to be lazy purposely today. And yet I also got more done around the house today than I normally do. Although, I can't remember who stated this on here, I still make my bed every day.

I'm not sure what else I'm doing. 9 months out and I still think of my H way too often. Living rurally is still difficult.

Oh, I did go out with friends the other night. That was fun!