Cherry. H is filing and leaving. Working on me

[Cherry]

Thanks surfer, I always appreciate the support and the fact that the advise you give me is to make sure I am staying on track with this.

I feel it will be acting for a good while until I feel more at peace right now. I know at the moment, as awful and selfish as this is- but I am in no way ready to wish him well with his life, I'm just not.

The date nights was a thing we started to do after the last time. But then after a while, it became date nights where we would meet up with his friends, and then I began to feel like I was imposing on their night. I guess he had given up and I was still working to make him happy, but we all know that this just doesn't work one sided.

Yeah this is my true best friend, she's been there through every challenging situation in my life, and has always been there for me when others haven't. We had a girls trip to Paris earlier on in the year when wh had started checking out again. And she doesn't tell me what to do or dole out advise, she just tries her best to keep me busy and keep me smiling.

He has kept himself locked away again. He only comes out once everyone is up and in bed. He didn't bother to say goodnight to s and hasn't even seen him really all day. His loss ultimately. I know I put my s to bed smiling and had my goodnight kiss from him. Now I shall have a well deserved rest and pamper