Cherry. H is filing and leaving. Working on me

[Cherry]

Had a busy day with my girlfriend had a pamper and a major shopping spree. Made me feel a little better for a while but then I'm surrounded by constant little triggers that stab me in the heart.
I get home say hello, as I pass. He ignored me, didn't look up, then he said hello. I really hate what he stands for right now. The fact he's all happy that he has his ow and all those happy feelings when you get with someone new. Singing away in his room. And all I'm left with my heart broken. I know he's no prize right now. But I just feel that stabbing betrayal. That only two months ago he is making me all these promises, telling me he loves me and I'm having his baby. Then days later it unraveled to chaos. And it's getting worse and worse. It's selfish, and it's childish- but I want them to hurt the way I am. I hate him right now. And I hate her.