Phase 2

[Pax_luv]

Thank you all so much for the insights and suggestions. I like the idea of getting a massage, but getting massaged by a guy makes me nervous! Ha ha!

So last night, I did confide in my friend that I was feeling lonely. Her immediate suggestion was to join an online dating site. She couldn't understand why I hadn't tried it already. Just to get myself out there, and see what I like and don't like. She said it's a good opportunity to try new approaches. She met her boyfriend of 1.5 years on one of the free ones. I thought, wow I can't do that. The whole swipe right/ swipe left is not for me. I told her I would feel bad judging someone that way! But I totally get that's how it's done these days. She said, then you need to join xxxxx site. I thought...... Mm mm maybe. Then we thought, since we were at a football game she would help me scope out some guys. (Eye roll)

Not 5 minutes later, we were talking to this vendor at the stadium and he asked if we were single. She said no. After some awkward hesitation, I said yes and just smiled at my friend. It was funny because we literally were just talking about it! He said he found that hard to believe. My friend asked if he was single and he said yes too. Then after a minute or two of small talk, he asked me out. Ok this guy was really cute, but looked super young. Immediately, I blurted out- ummm how old are you?!? He turned red and said we can talk it over during dinner. I shook my head and then he said 23! Oh my lord! There is no way in hel! that I want to be a cougar.... Or a sugar mama! It was funny though and I had a good laugh.

So today, I'm reading all of your kind responses and feedback and yet I can't get the idea out of my mind that maybe I do want to dabble with the online thing. I have gone out on a couple dates through all of this, but knew I was never ready. While I'm reading along with your awesome comments, a commercial comes on talking about this weekend's "free communication weekend" for the site my friend recommended. I ignored it. The commercial came back on again while I was reading my book...... So I put the book down, got online and thought- yep, I'm gonna do it.

As I get ready to fill out the profile, my heart is pumping, and I get to the relationship status part. I honestly clicked on "separated" and moved to the next question. A few clicks later, a message pops up and says- Your relationship status does not indicate that you are single. Therefore you are not eligible to join our site.

Touché universe. Touché.