Out of in house S - On My Own (11)

[vise82]

Had a good day with the kids. Stayed home as money is tight.

Have kid drop off tomorrow. W texts me about money and about if I could register S4 for a winter indoor soccer. I message back that I cant do anything till I get paid next week.

I have all my money tied up into buying the house I am living in right now. Its been streasfull as I work out all the details and making sure I have the money to do it.

W texts me about S4 birthday and if we were going to give him one for all his school friends.

I replie back really?? No
She texts back: so you think just because we are not together that he misses out on a birthday party?
I reply There is more to it then that but I think you answered your own question.

Then she text back that we could just have it at a kids indoor playground and split the cost.

There it is right there, the split the cost, the only reeason she would be asking. I have not replied back.

It did hurt a little to read that we are not together from her. First time I have seen it in back and white like that from her.
But it is the truth.

I am holding strong on this. I need to make sure I am ok before I can look after my kids. so i can be there for them. He is getting a party from me and his brother. W side of the family will give him a party too. Her guilt tripping does not change what is. I will not plan a party with her. I cant. not interested. It would set me so far back. I need to move forward with out her. and live the sepreate life she so wanted.

I would have some of my family at the party but I cant untill she gives the OK in writing. Or I get lawyers involved. She still is ignoring my requests for an answer.

Then I get two of my other sisters text me, they got my number off my brother. I am not realy ready to talk to them and it feels like pressure, like my world is colapsing a little.

trying to be strong, as strong as a vise, everyday.